Welcome to another edition of my Weekly Journal! I use this space to share about my journey from lawyer to jewelry business owner. In this week's journal entry, I'm addressing that little voice in your head that says, "Yeah, that big dream of yours sounds nice and all, but here are all the reasons why it can't happen..."
Let's start by doing a little experiment. Think about that big thing you're wishing for - is it starting your own business? Switching careers? Being in a serious romantic relationship? Getting married? Having a child? Take a moment to picture it in your mind. Now, what does your mind say when you do that? Does it say "yeah, but..." and then list reasons why it can never happen? If you said yes, please read on. This journal entry is for you.
When we have a big dream but our mind says "yeah, but..." that means we don't believe it can be ours. We might say we want this or that, but deep down we don't believe it can actually happen. There is a disconnect. It can be painful to be in this stage because we're out of alignment and often don't know why. We might be hustling to make that dream happen, but we're encountering a lot of struggle and frustration in return. We can do "all the right things" but still not see it come to pass. So let me propose a new idea, a new storyline, for you to consider. Could it be that your dream is not coming to pass because your desires and beliefs do not match up? You know that quote, "You'll see it when you believe it?" That's kind of what I'm talking about here.
Now, you might be saying to yourself, "BUT I DO BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE. I REALLY DO!" If that's you, I ask you to get silent for a few moments. Lay down on your back with one hand on your heart and one hand on your stomach. Think about the dream you so badly want to see come to pass. Get still and silent as you think about that dream. Gently ask yourself the question, "Why hasn't this happened for me yet?" Be still and let some answers gently flow to you. Listen carefully to what comes up. There may be some hidden beliefs lurking in the background that have been holding you back. If the tears start to flow, let them come out.
You might be thinking to yourself, I don't meditate, I don't "manifest", and this is "woo woo" kind of stuff. I respectfully disagree and I ask you to consider a different story. One need not look any further than the Bible to see evidence of this principle, this universal law - and I'm sure you don't think the Bible is "woo woo", right? Mark 11:24 says, "I give you my word, if you are ready to believe that you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer, it shall be done for you." It goes on to say, "Whoever says to this mountain, be lifted up and thrown into the sea, and has no inner doubts but believes that what he says will happen, shall have it done for him." I love this passage so much because it hints at another really important principle -- the ability to receive. Women in particular sometimes have a hard time receiving. Underneath that is often a feeling of unworthiness - we don't believe that we are entitled to receive the dream, we don't believe we're worthy of it. Or sometimes we think it's more important to be selfless and care for others more than we care for ourselves, and this can block our ability to receive too. There was a point in my business where I really had to work on my ability to receive. I was doing everything "right" and working hard at my dream, but still something was off. I wasn't seeing the abundance I desired and believed I deserved to receive. And voila! One day it clicked. My desires and beliefs were in alignment, but my ability to receive was out of whack. I needed to examine my self-worth and do some work around that. Sure enough, a short time later I had cleared some blocks around receiving and abundance started to flow more easily. For example, one of the blocks to receiving I had to clear was, "Who am I to make money doing something I love while the rest of the world struggles in jobs they hate?" I replaced that with "I deserve to do work I love and money can flow to me easily when I use the gifts and talents God gave me."
If you find yourself today in a place of frustration because you're working hard at a dream but it's not coming to pass (or you haven't even started working on it because you believe it's impossible or you're not worthy of it), I highly recommend you think about the ideas I've written about today. Even though you say you want your dream so badly, your inner beliefs might be doubting it. No amount of hustle is going to fix that. Rather, some internal work needs to be done.
I hope you're able to learn something from my own experience. If you'd like my Weekly Journal sent straight to your inbox every week, click here to subscribe.
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